Have you ever had a week that you wish you could skip? Just erase it from existence. For me, that week is this one. My professional frustration and personal relationships apparently had a secret meeting and decided that they were going to fuck with me this week, starting with what was supposed to be a relaxing and enjoyable Sunday that turned into a two hour sob and hid under the covers fest to a long frustrating Monday that refused to let me go home and rest to an emotionally charged and hair pulling Tuesday that is barely over. (I can't wait to see what Wednesday brings).
With all of that said, I am pushing through and looking forward to bright spots that I know are coming later this week (i.e., getting to go backstage at Monica's Code Red concert on Sunday and laying on a Florida beach next Wednesday). What I am going through this week is all part of life. Life is full of ups and downs. I cannot control the feelings or actions of others. I cannot will good things to happen. I cannot make people stop hurting their own family members in the name of loyalty and family.
What I can do is allow my anger, hurt, and frustrations their due time to work themselves out (side note: if you have seen the Pixar movie Inside Out, then you know that you need all of these emotions to function "normally.") Cry if I need to cry. Sigh if I need to sigh. Curse if I need to curse. Let those emotions have their minute, hour, day, week, or month (but not year....not again).
When all that is said and done, and I have gotten everything out, then I must get myself together and move forward.